Happy Divorce Chapter 6 (Part 4)
Happy Divorce Chapter 6 (Part 4) Original translation is from tenderflower's blog.
“So everything is for revenge on the Yan family,” Su Manlu said, opening her mouth and looking at him with gloomy eyes. “And I am one of the victims, is that right?”
“...I’m sorry.” Yan Feixi could only express a thousand words of apology in the end. Back then, he had an extreme personality and was impulsive at a young age, so he had done many wrong things. He didn’t regret taking revenge on the Yan family, but he regretted hurting her.
His apology couldn’t make up for anything. Su Manlu had long known that he hated the Yan family and was aware of the grudges and relationships within it, but she didn’t expect that the incident with Shui Lan’er was actually fake.
Was the most embarrassing thing for her back then actually fake?
Su Manlu couldn’t help but find it funny. Looking at Yan Feixi, she asked him, “Do you know that Shui Lan’er came to Yan’s mansion to kneel down and beg me to let her enter the door?” Seeing his surprised look, she gently tugged at the corners of her lips.
“It seems you don’t know.” Her black eyes were filled with mockery, and she continued: “Then do you know that when I got the divorce letter, the second wife, your father’s concubines, and your sisters drove me and Bi Luo away from the Yan family that night, not allowing us to take a single coin... including the dowry I brought to the Yan family?” At this point, she suddenly realized, “Hey, how could you know? You already eloped with Shui Lan’er... Oh, no, it wasn’t an elopement; you took her away. But it doesn’t matter if you don’t know; I can tell you.”
She smiled and said softly, “It was Lantern Festival night, and it was so lively outside. When Bi Luo and I were kicked out of Yan’s mansion, a crowd gathered around to watch. They pointed at me. Some people sympathized with me, while others laughed at me. Bi Luo was so angry that she cried. She yelled at the Yan family and told the onlookers to go away, while I just stood there and endured all the insults.”
“I don’t know...” Yan Feixi murmured in surprise. Her words made his heart ache.
“Yes, you don’t know.” Su Manlu agreed with him, her face wearing a mocking smile. “So you didn’t realize that, in the end, it was your father, the one you hated the most, who drove away the onlookers. He apologized to me and said he was sorry for what happened. He returned the dowry I brought to the Yan family and asked people to send me back to Nanxi City and to the Su family... Because of this, I only allowed Father to consume the Yan family’s stores in the south instead of ruining them completely.”
As if thinking of something, Su Manlu suddenly laughed aloud, “It’s so funny. You were cruel to me because you hated him, but in the end, the person you hated most gave me a trace of warmth... Do you know? I don’t hate the Yan family. I don’t hate Shui Lan’er, but——I hate you.” She said the last three words very softly, but very firmly.
Yan Feixi was shocked. He knew she hated him. How could she not hate him? He had treated her so ruthlessly back then, and she certainly had reason to hate him.
But when he actually heard her express hatred with his own ears, Yan Feixi found that he couldn’t admit it, and his heart ached violently.
“I know that what you’re doing now is out of guilt. You want to make amends to me. Ha.” Su Manlu sneered, and there was not a single tear in her red eyes——her tears had already flowed away that month.
“I don’t need you to make amends at all, but since you want to, I will make it happen for you. I’ll wait and see how far you can go in making amends. Once you’ve made amends, we won’t owe anyone anything, and we’ll have nothing to do with each other from now on.”
No one owed anyone? Nothing to do with each other?
She spoke so decisively and firmly that Yan Feixi panicked upon hearing this.
Why didn’t he feel happy at all when she said that? Instead, he felt anxious, as if something was pressing on his heart?
Yes, he wanted to make amends to her, but, but he didn’t want to be free of owed obligations or to have nothing to do with her.
“What if I say I’m not just making amends?” Yan Feixi blurted out, “What if I say I was tempted by you?”
As soon as these words came out, not only was Su Manlu stunned, but he was as well.
Tempted? He, tempted by her?
Yan Feixi looked at her in a daze. In his eyes, she was fragile yet strong——no, she had always been resolute and strong, and that vulnerability was given to her by him.
He caused the pain in her eyes, and his heart ached for her... He didn’t know when his heart had started aching for her.
He thought it was guilt and didn’t think he was tempted.
Perhaps it was a man’s instinct to always look down on what he could easily obtain, but when they met again, she was no longer like before, which surprised and aroused his curiosity.
He couldn’t help but pay attention to her and couldn’t bear her indifference. He deliberately provoked her, hoping she would focus on him.
Then... when he saw her injuries and pain, he began to feel sorry for her, began to feel reluctant, and began to hate everything he had done before.
He told himself that he wanted to make amends because of his guilt.
But this was just an excuse, not merely amends... What he really wanted was...
Staring into those black eyes, he wanted her to look at him with admiration like she did back then, instead of being cold or indifferent.
His fingertips gently brushed against the tear stain on her face. Her eyes were red, but she did not shed a single tear... She had never shed tears in front of him.
It made his heart ache.
“Not amends.” No, never. “If I just wanted to make amends to you, I wouldn’t always appear in front of you; if I just sought to make amends to you, my heart wouldn’t hurt because of you; if I truly aimed to make amends to you, I wouldn’t want to hold you in my arms and beg you to cry in front of me.”
Yan Feixi sighed softly, sensing her tremors, and gently kissed the tear mole. “Manlu...” His low voice echoed like a call to his most cherished one.
A gentle kiss fell on her small face, carefully and lovingly, for fear of scaring her. “Manlu, I’m not just making amends...” His lips gently landed on her quivering lips.
“Manlu, I was tempted by you. I... am falling for you.”
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